Orhan
Pamuk's autobiography (or "memoir", as he calls it himself), Istanbul, explores his childhood and maturity
as carefully and profoundly as it catalogues the fall of a great Eastern empire
(325). Only in the last few chapters are we able to place our confusion as to
why the book is as much as a historical documentary on Istanbul as it is an
autobiography: "But here we have come full circle, for anything we say
about the city's essence says more about our own lives and our own states of
mind. The city has no center other than ourselves" (349). Pamuk cannot help but resonate with
Istanbul and its melancholic ruins, writers, steam ships, and crowded streets
of the rich minority and poor majority. He accepts and agrees with the city's hüzün, a communal sense of loss and
"spiritual agony and grief", that stems from its dichotomous reality
(90). It's caught between western and traditional culture, bickering ethnic
groups, and waves of immigrants and is still "a place where, for the past
150 years, no one has been able to feel completely at home" (115).
Although he acknowledges that "it won't do to use the city's melancholy to
explain away my own", Pamuk simultaneously admits that if he does
"feel deeply connected to my city" because it has given him a
"deeper wisdom and understanding than any [he] could acquire in a
classroom" (351-52).
Pamuk
implies that this greater maturity that the city has granted him was more
enlightening than any school education he received. Throughout the
autobiography it is clear that his rich exploration of himself as an artist,
thinker, brother, and son does indeed occur outside the classroom more often.
Pamuk skipped school (primary, lycee/secondary and Technical University) out of
"boredom", "shame", knowing that he'd have too much to do
if he went to school, having an argument with his parents, "pure laziness
or irresponsibility", or because he was a "house pet" and wanted
solitude (304). His "melancholy, [my] existentialist despair" were
also excuses for exploring familiar streets, where "everything was real
and beautiful and irresistible as it had been when [he] was a child"
(305-6).
I enjoyed
this book. It's a particularly clever way of writing an autobiography, and at
first glance, no one would easily guess that "Istanbul" is an
autobiography. In fact, the title (and book cover) gives off the impression
that it is a historical analysis, a personal travel log, or some sort of
semi-biographical novel. It was tempting to get bogged down by the minute
finicky details of both Istanbul's history and Pamuk's life. The black and
white photos - an unchangeable fact of early photography, a reflection of the
"tarnish of history", and implication of dichotomy - are welcome
respites within the rich passages of biography and history. At first I was
slightly peeved at Pamuk for talking so much about Istanbul, when he should include
more explicit passages on his childhood, his family, his brother, school life
if it is truly an autobiography. I realized, much to my relief, that the
chapters on Istanbul and Pamuk were not exclusive: in talking about the city,
he was writing about himself.
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